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The Monologue and the Precursor
 A Nomad in a Wasteland With Troubled Thoughts - https://pastebin.com/b6Md3atp (June 22, 2022)
 Volume I 
 Entropic, Grand Sky, & Mind Labyrinth Arcs - https://pastebin.com/NxpK0cHe (Aug 23, 2022 ~ Mar 20, 2023) 26k words
 Kingdom Hearts Arc
 Coming to Terms with Myself - https://pastebin.com/7BCTxuVR ~7.8k words. (March 26, 2023)
By Becoming a 24/7 Convenience Store Just For You - https://pastebin.com/XPAwA6ys ~5.3k words. (April 9, 2023)
Because My Biggest Strength Socially is Doing Absolutely Nothing - https://pastebin.com/HbBgXPMc ~2k words. [Current] (April 17, 2023)
When in Actuality, the Genuine Warmth from Others Became The Kingdom to My Heart -  ~2.1k words. [Current] (May 2, 2023)
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 I figured it is a perfect time as any to write. But this time, it will be quite heart felt.
 The feedback is there, that I've been overall a great person. For the longest time, I've always been selfless to the point I give myself up for other people quite constantly. It could range as small as hearing someone's day out, offering professional advice with tech related topics, setting up other peoples' Discord Servers, donating to people whose short on rent or groceries. What do I expect from them? I just want them to live a good life whether I'm around or I'm absent elsewhere, that's all I really desired. I put my hands in my pocket and walk off from the distance after that, knowing that I made a difference is good enough for me.
 The feeling of a genuine form of praise or thanks, it warms me quite so. And in the days of when I was depressed, it slowly chipped away at my poker face. 
 There are a fair share of quotes that I remember that end up making me feel elevated to the next level of happiness. Now, for those who pay attention to my Discord statuses, some of them were featured. So you'll definitely be there, somewhere. 
 I'll start out with a Discord status that took me by surprise.
 "I would rather spend eternity in hell rather than live a minute without you. I hope you two know who you are. Thank you..." 
"She stole my heart and he struck a critical hit to it. Thank you both for everything~"
 I've never been put in a situation where I'm majorly credited alongside a partner's happiness. The way it was phrased is quite cool as well. It made me put a huge smile to my face.
 From here, well, this entry will carry itself because you've all personally said this to me. As a challenge, I'll make the quotes from other people and turn it into something cohesive. 
 *Note that each block represents a different person:
 "I hope you’re are doing well you mean very much to me so I only wish you you to be happy I believe in you Critical you will do great things in the future I bet."
 "Sometimes being around specific sorts of people makes you only want to think about and show the parts that they like seeing, but I am very glad to hear that you've settled more into being your genuine self regardless of how some people view people being truly happy with yourself and others."
 "So take your time. Know that it is up to you to find your own meaning. But that everyone is doing the same for their own, on their own whims. For better or for worse. To find meaning in their lives - for to live, is to suffer. And when you are ready, it would be my pleasure to continue on with you on this never-ending journey of self-discovery and enlightenment."
 "I think if people are close to you, they should be able to understand that people can make mistakes and look past it - they might be annoyed in the short term, but in the long term I think they'll realize that it's not worth wasting it all over small things. I know it might be difficult to see, but if someone is really close - they should understand."
"People are social beings and emotions even more so, I think the ability to openly discuss what you're feeling with someone is stronger than attempting to deal with it on your own, because it's not a permanent solution and eventually it will become too much.
"I promise you people don't think you're undesirable, if anything the opposite. If I thought you were undesirable, do you really think I would have ended up this fat~?"
"At this point it just seems you're trying to make points against yourself, I can assure you you're fighting an immovable object because I know for a fact that you aren't undesirable or anything even remotely close."
 "It's a good thing that you've been hearing people out when you can. Everyone deserves some form of help, especially you."
"... Like you? Dare I say, I love you."
"You're my little protag."
"You really know exactly the right words to cheer me up, and I appreciate that about you."
 "You've been taking care of so many people [Crit]. Now, let me take care of you."
"You're being cute again."
 "You've done enough. You actually do more than enough..."
"If you're the clouds, then I am the moon because I always oversee everything that goes on in the darkness. I've observed everything about you, and you definitely caught my attention."
"Well I see you like fire. It has many useful aspects. It has the power to hurt but just by itself its harmless. People think fire is comforting and is able to warm up a home. Fire also can't exist with circumstances if not the flame gets so weak. People can add wood to a fire and it only can burn for a bit, but if you keep adding more you can keep it burning. 
Fire is needed for people to live. Fire could help so many people. Fire could be gentle and comfy. People are afraid of the flame so they don't bother getting close. People who are cold want and need fire. No matter if they get burned."
 "I love you so much you're such an amazing and genuine friend."
"I'm so comfy and happy with you, your always true to yourself and just damn awesome. Never change."
"You know Crit, you're a pretty rad guy."
 "That's all I really want, I just want you to keep in touch with me."
"[If you tried to be like everyone else], it wouldn't be you, and you're irreplaceable."
"You've been helping others too much. You should let yourself heal before you help me."
"No, I don't want you to ever go away."
 "You're a wonderful person!"
"Well you're chill, doesn't like drama, and you're open to try to comfort people and you're cute too! I'm sure there is a couple of people that thinks the same as well."
 "You the first guy friend I've had when I came back online who was not trying to get into my pants. That's saying a lot."
"Crit is the best mediator that I personally know. Crit will hear both sides out and will only do that before giving out his perspective."
 "Critical, I know you've been giving me a lot of stuff and I want to let you know that you don't have to give me anything in the first place. You can hang out with me for free and I appreciate you for spending time with me too!"
 "You know no matter how much time passes, I'm still going to find you and you're not going to get away with it and I will demand your hugs."
"You've been there for me when I was crying. You've been there for me when I asked you to help my friend who had thoughts about wanting to end things. Crit, you mean a lot more than you think you are."
 "Everyone's makes mistakes, but your mistakes don't define you. It's the change you try to make that does."
"No matter if you're a mistake or not, I care OK? And right now, I just want to spend some time with someone I care about."
"If you don't think you're worth loving, that's fine. It doesn't mean I'll stop."
 "... I will always enjoy your company no matter how "broken" you are or "used" for the memories we have are priceless. Remember I chose to hang with you not the other way around. I chose to try and help you and that is what I shall do."
 "It doesn't matter if you aren't in the best shape today, that can always change and if I can speak my mind... I think you are worth saving." 
 "I'm proud of you for being able to overcome your struggles. When I first saw you, you were rather lost. Devoid of all color. You collapsed on my lap and I allowed it. How do you sound now? You sound much more upbeat. I can feel your comforting presence."
"I've taken a lot of interest in you, Critical. I wouldn't be here helping you out otherwise."
 Alright, the last one I'll address is myself, talking to me.
 "Let's be real myself. You're living proof that if you put your mind to something and you really desire it... You'll eventually obtain it. For the longest time, I've looked up to other people who seem chill and various Shonen-like anime for inspiration. It seems that your biggest trait is being yourself. You've always had it in you... You were just extremely nervous is all. It is very nerve wrecking to see that most people tend to follow a trend, act or behave like everyone else. But you knew it felt weird to not be yourself, and it even got you down for deviating away from being yourself. So at the end of the day, you chose to be yourself. That's the biggest reason for why you're surrounded by the people that you are today. You never compromised yourself in any way to meet those people. You simply were being yourself, you respected their boundaries, you kept your intentions simple and just want to have idle company. It turns out that worked well, and people stuck around with you because of that. That's really neat, good on you. Also, it's okay if at the end of the day all you desire is wanting to keep hanging out and meeting all kinds of people. That was better than my original plan of becoming a hermit and double down on going deep with the career path. Because it did not allow time or opportunities to meet new people. If anything, it became a lonesome path. You remember Flan, right? She learned all those coding languages at an awfully fast rate. You would of crashed and regressed a lot had you went down that path, just like she did. Sure, at the end of the day you don't specialize in anything particular. However, your passion in wanting to hang out with people has grown your ability to communicate with all sorts of people. You met people who you wouldn't have imagine. You met people who care for you, even love you. Now, because you seem to be out there in the open and very lofty, it seems that your concern really is not knowing when to settle down with someone. Well, I'd rather you take your time on that prospect than rush it, which you tell yourself that everyday. You even preach that to everyone else who seems to be having complaints regarding relationships. I'll also admit that you are quite a perplexing person and you have days where you wander off and do your own thing. It seems the consistent pursuit in wanting to not just know yourself, but master your inner self so that you can be completely in control of yourself... It's something you personally always wanted, so why not go for it? Just make sure the people that end up being close to you know that of course. The biggest thing I'll ask you to do is to continue doing what you do especially when you're not feeling well. Just speak out about how you feel and believe in the people that have stuck by your side. Those people are what make you, you Crit.
 Let the people closest to you live in your heart, and before you know it, you'll be in a consistent state of content and happiness where you no longer are afraid of being alone. Sure, things will change and some of the people you used to be with are no longer reachable. But each person that cares about you definitely left valuable moments and a time of warmth when you needed it most at that point in time. 
 So go out there and show the world what it means to vibe and be comfortable in your own pace. Go in with no expectations. Hope for the best, always expect the worse.
 But never forget to be yourself. For that personality of yours is actually your biggest trait that you have."